This doesn't make sense

Hello world, 

How are you all doing today? Good I hope. I'm not sure how I feel today, if I'm honest, I really don't feel like myself, I feel a little bit numb, my emotions right now are non exhistant, and I feel lke I don't exhist? It's hard to explain, I haven't felt like this ever, I woke up feeling like it. I think the mixture of not working, not doing anything and hardly being productive has finally got to me and my brain has just snapped, as sad as it sounds. I think I'm going to write today off as a poopy day; where nothing gets done but I don't have to feel bad about it. Sure, I have stuf to do, but it will still be there tomorow and will get done then. I feel like not many people look after themselves well mentally as much as they to physically, and not looking after yourself mentally can be very, very, very bad. I've been there, but hey, that's another blog post for another day.

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As for the rest of the day, I haven't really done anything that I can call 'productive'. I managed to get out of bed and shower which is a plus, clean the kitchen and then plonked right back into bed again. Not as productive as I wanted to be today but there's always tomorow to be better. I need to find something to keep me busy, I'd love to blog more but the constant voice in my head telling me that my blog is nothing makes it hard. It's nothing to me, my blog is like my baby, but it's hard when a silly voice in the back of your head shouts at you contantly that you're nothing. 

On the bright side of all this crappyness, I finally got a job, I won't go into what it is or what i'll be doing but for now I'll be better off financially, kind of a little weight off my shoulders. It's a nice feeling.

I'm gonna crawl back into bed and think of other things I can do to keep me busy, things to write, sleep. What are your evening plans?

Toodle pip
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