Failed October Goals

Oh hai.

A while back you might notice a post I had written which had some goals I want to achieve personally. (You can find that post here). Now, I don't know about you, but when you get sick, achieving goals is something that is totally at the back of my mind. I steered clear from my blog for a while and totally forget about them until recently when I was nosing through my writing and found them again. The list of goals included:

  • Plan blog posts in advance, write down any ideas I get that I want to feature on this blog.
  • My little slice of the internet is in dire need of a re-design. I've had the same look and feel for the past two years and feel like it's time for a change. Here's hoping that happens in the new year.
  • Keep growing out my hair. My bangs are now at the "Why am I doing this" Stage. At least I can hide them with a hat.. Right?.
  • Touch up my liquid eyeliner skills.
  • Drink more water.
  • Relax - As if I'm not doing that enough already.

Now, looking at this list, I'm already thinking nope, I haven't kept to any of these. But then again, whithout realising I'm doing it, I've kept to some. So without further ado;

  • Plan blog posts in advance, write down any ideas I get that I want to feature on this blog. Ha! I mean, do people even do this? Planned blog posts so far: 0
  • My little slice of the internet is in dire need of a re-design. I've had the same look and feel for the past two years and feel like it's time for a change. Here's hoping that happens in the new year. Still working on it - I sit and stare at my monitor sometimes with some designs then turn everything off. Progress?
  • Keep growing out my hair. My bangs are now at the "Why am I doing this" Stage. At least I can hide them with a hat.. Right?. They were doing my head in, so I chopped them off, rest in pieces. 
  • Touch up my liquid eyeliner skills. I don't need to touch up my skills, I'm a fucking badass at winged eyeliner already. Winged eyeliner so sharp, I could kill a man.
  • Drink more water. Yay! Finally a goal I achieved! 
  • Relax - As if I'm not doing that enough already. I guess I did enough of that when I was sick so yay?
So that's an update and a half. I was going to set myself more goals then thought to myself, y'know what? Fuck it I'm taking life as it comes. 

Let's see what happens,


Oh hai.
I'm sort of reluctant to write this update since I haven't written on here in so long, but the longer I leave it the harder it'll be to get back in the jist of things; and after going to bed and waking up at a decent time for once, and waking up feeling like an actual person is a pretty good feeling, so why not document it?

Up, dressed, face on, all before mid day!? I've had two coffees and breakfast!? Who is this person and what have you done with Laura?

Asside from feeling shit mentally, I've also been sick physically. I developed a cold around the beginning of November, about a week before I was due to get my flu jab, which is bloody typical because guess what my cold developed into? Yup, thats right, the flu. Thanks body, I guess. Asside feeling sorry for myself for getting the flu, I also developed bacterial conjunctivitis (Apperently this is a thing, if your body already knows you're ill, it just decides to throw more shit at you, which is brill) this was just the icing on top of the shit cake. So whilst battling with some stuff mentally, which I wont go into for your own sanity, I was also battling feeling like shit physically. Ever have those days where you just feel like giving up? That was literally the whole of November for me. Today is the only day I have woken up and not felt like shit. My mind feels clear for once, I don't feel like crap now that my illness is sorting itself out, it's like my body has given me an early Christmas present of sorting itself out. 

Part of me is sort of resenting myself feeling like this - I fear tomorrow I'll wake up and everything will be shit again, but I keep telling myself why fear tomorrow when I can live in the now? I'm alive, I've been productive within my personall life, I'm doing the best I can.

So there's that little update for ya. Also super excited for Christmas, is that sad? Makes a change to be excited for something. 

Here's to more blog posts right?

Toodlepip x

Coffee Time

Todays Coffee:
Vanilla flat white courtesty of Costa, and free because of the Wuntu app, yay! There's nothing better than free coffee so thank you very much Three.

What today has consisted of: 
Got out of bed at 2PM today with a sore throat and blocked nose. Joys of the colder season, I go all year with not getting ill once then BAM! I'm a breeding ground for germs. Urgh. I feel so unproductive, I have literally done nothing all day. It's nice to give myself a 'break' but the only things I have really done today was get out of bed, showered, painted my face and went out to get cat good. Sound fun? Eh. The only good thing out of today was the free coffee I got thanks to the wuntu app on my phone, woohoo! Oh, did I mention I got free pizza too? Because that was a thing too now apparently, although I managed to screw up my order and put it through four times by accident because the code wouldn't go through properly and the guy who was serving me just gave up and told me to just take the pizza..

Things that have made me happy today: 
Free coffee. Free pizza.

Look at the chickeny, cheesy goodness, urgh.

Things that have made me sad today: 
The lady who made my sandwhich in Subway put way too much mayo on my sandwhich and that did make me really sad. I also ordered my mums birthday present which should be here in six days. Her birthday is in four. Fucking typical.

Currently listening to:

Not really an interesting post today but thought I'd update you guys anyway on how lazy my day was.

My October Goals

Oh hai,

Happy October! I can't believe how quickly September has gone. It feels like only a couple of days ago I was turning 23, but I couldn't be happier as we roll into my favourite season, Autumn. After waking up on a rather sad looking Monday, it looks like sweater season is here and ready to stay. I'm excited for a new month to start, leaving the past in the past and so on. I've found a new love for my blog again with more inspiration than ever to write, and I've been super productive in my home life when I can be. I'd like to continue on like this throughout the month and enjoy as many seasonal festivities as possible.


  • Plan blog posts in advance, write down any ideas I get that I want to feature on this blog.
  • My little slice of the internet is in dire need of a re-design. I've had the same look and feel for the past two years and feel like it's time for a change. Here's hoping that happens in the new year.
  • Keep growing out my hair. My bangs are now at the "Why am I doing this" Stage. At least I can hide them with a hat.. Right?.
  • Touch up my liquid eyeliner skills.
  • Drink more water.
  • Relax - As if I'm not doing that enough already.

What are your goals? 

I've Been Thinking..

... Careful Laura, that's dangerous. You, thinking? Are you having a laugh?
Oh hai.

So you're probably thinking by the title, Oh god, here we go again, another lengthy blog post filled with words that she probably doesn't understant/know the meaning of. Well you're wrong! Ha!.. Well, sort of, I dunno, I've mainly been thinking about life in general. What I could change around me, things about myself that I could improve on, what flavoured oreos I want to eat. Important stuff, y'know?

Sometimes I get too lost in my thoughts, to the point where I'm staring into space, drooling, blinking one eye at a time, know what I'm saying? I've just been thinking about my future alot, where I'd like to be a few months from now, etc. I'd like to be in a somewhat stable job with stable income. Start to save for a little getaway somewhere; Typical think about the future stuff. This probably makes no sence at all, but it made sense in my head when I was typing it. Guess what I'm trying to say is I'm hoping my life in a few months time from now is at least five times better than it is now. Touch wood.

I should probably proof read blog posts. BUT I LIVE LIFE ON THE EDGE BOYS TAKE ME OR LEAVE ME! HA!

P.S. Mint flavoured Oreos are the absolute bomb!

On The First Sunday Of October

Oh hai.

I don't know about you guys but I'm feeling very Autumnal today. How is it October already? It feels like only two days ago it was the begining of August, trying not to melt in the summer heat, now I'm trying not to freeze in the colder weather surviving in just cardigans.. Should probably invest in a Winter coat soon, right?

I honestly can't wait for it to get colder though, the nights seeping in earlier and earlier throughout the day and being able to just cuddle up in millions of soft blankets in bed and sipping on caramel hot chocolate and lots of Halloweeny type movies to watch endlessly. Bliss. 

Whats your favourite time of year and why? Let me know!

Little Things That Make Me Smile

Oh hai, 
Just a quick little blog post today. I thought I'd tell you all the cute little things that make me smile. I know some of my reasons may sound a little soppy or wierd or questionalbe. But the things that make me smile makes me, me. So, here's a list of things that make me smile;

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  1. Days where it just pours with rain, any excuse to stay inside and hide under a blanket.
  2. Being organised.
  3. The perfect Coffee.
  4. Guilt free Fried Chicken.
  5. Wierd/cute mugs.
  6. Walking down the laundry detergent isle in the supermarket and it smelling amazing.
  7. Blogging.
  8. Streaming video games on Twitch with friends. 
  9. Clear night skies.
  10. Caramel hot chocolate with tons of whipped cream and caramel sauce on top.
  11. Being organised.
  12. Loosing hours to a really good book.
  13. Fitting in an extra hour.. or six of sleep in.
  14. Discovering new places. (When I actually go outside).
  15. Good hair days.
  16. Good eyebrow days.
  17. Good eyeliner days.
  18. Recieving mail that isn't a bill.
  19. Waking up and realising you have no responsibilities for that day.
  20. When someone cancels plans you had made that you really didn't want to do.

What brightens your day? Let me know in the comments, I'd love to know!

Ease Your Mind

Oh hai.
Recently I've been writing alot, not just in here, but in my journal. I find it theraputic to write on this her blog, but there's just something about writing with an actual pen onto paper I love doing. It sounds sad, but I've hardly written anything since leaving school back in 2011, work has either been typed up, texted or emailed to me, never hand written. 
It's kinda sad, but I love handwriting things, especially mail, it just gives it that little personal touch.

I like to carry my little journal round with me where ever I go, that way where ever I am at the time, I can write, draw, paint, jot down blog ideas, a little bit of everything really. That, and I'm terrible at remembering little things, so I find writing it down helps alot. Sure, I have my notes app on my phone, but it's really not the same when it comes to it. 

Another reason I like to carry this thing around with me is because I find it theraputic to write things down. As well as it helping me remember things, obviously, I like to paint and draw in it, just little things, it's wierd to explain, I see things in my head that I need to put down on paper. It sounds dumb, but if I don't do it, I end up feeling really bad on what I could have created, so I like to doodle as much as possible.

I'd definitly reccomend getting yourself a little journal if you haven't already, even if you're not forgetful like I am, it's still nice to look back on good days, and sometimes bad days, learn who you are as a person, look back on how creative you can be and even plan some adventures.

I got my little journal for around £8 from Paperchase, I couldn't find the exact one I have, but I found one similar which you can find here. 
What do you like to put in your journal?

"Life Can Be Like a Punch.."

... Right in the face, if you're lucky. Literally, my sister just punched me in the face over tweezers (long story), but I got this awesome bruise now so guess I can milk being injured or a bit, right?

So, after this mornings shinanigens, I decided it was a good time to get out of the house. Living with an eighteen year old can be hard, what was it i was saying in one of my previous blog posts? Treasuring the moments I have with my sister when we don't fight over stupid shit? Ha. It's so hard living with someone you don't get on with all the time, esecially when it's family, I don't know what goes through their heads, you think if they thought about their actions before realising the consequences, life would be more peaceful wouldn't it? If only it were that simple. I guess we're both as bad as each other.

A friend of mine came out for a walk with me in the end which made me feel a little better. Sat down, talked, then after everything and dreading going back home, eventually went back, and napped for most of the afternoon.

If I'm honest, I still have a headache now. Urgh.

"Get To Know Me" Tag

Oh hai, 

So, like any normal person, I was scrolling through the internet at 3am when It suddenly hit me - After two years of blogging, I don't think I've ever done the "Get to know me tag". No one's ever tagged me, well, as far as I know, but I thought I'd tag myself so you lot can 'Get to know me'.

  1. What is your middle name? Elizabeth
  2. What is your favourite colour? Purple
  3. How tall are you? I'm a short 5'9 (175 cm)
  4. Cats or Dogs? Cats
  5. How many countries have you visited? Not many, I've visited; Spain, Turkey, Bulgaria and Ibiza (The less said about Ibiza the better)
  6. Are you in/gone to college? I finished college in 2014 with the lowest grade possible.. But I still finished!
  7. What was your favourite/worst subject in High School? Worst subject: Maths. Always. To this day i hate it. Favourite would be between ICT and Science
  8. What is your favourite drink? Vanilla latte
  9. What is your favourite animal? LIZARDS
  10. What is your favourite perfume? My favourite right now is Daisy Dream by Marc Jacobs
  11. Tea or Coffee? Coffee, everytime
  12. What would you (or have you) name your children? I've thought about it, but I kinda wanna keep it a secret :)
  13. What is your favourite book? If you haven't read Eat, Prey, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert what are you waiting for?
  14. What is your favourite movie? Toss up between Ferris Buellers Day Off and Bicentennial Man
  15. Are you Single or Taken? Single
  16. Whats your idea of an ideal first date? Fried Chicken has to be included. I don't care if we even do anything after that
  17. How many Girlfriends/Boyfriends have you had? Five
  18. Do you speak any different languages and how well? Unfortunatly, no :(
  19. Do you have any siblings? Yes, I have 1 sister, 3 half sisters, 1 step sister and 1 step brother
  20. How would you describe your fashion sense? A mess
  21. What is your favourite restaurant? Tiger Bills before they closed it, Now i'd probably go with Absurd Bird
  22. What are some of your favorite tv shows? Rick & Morty / Archer / Bottom / Gavin & Stacey / Skins / 1000 Ways to Die / The IT Crowd and Jeremy Kyle for good measure
  23. PC or mac? PC everytime
  24. What phone do you have? (iOS v Android?) iPhone 6s in Rose gold
  25. Tell us one of your bad habits! Taking stupidly long naps during the day, just because I'm bored, and then not sleeping at night.. Whoops

So, as random as those questions were, I hope it somewhat gave you a little insite into my likes, dislikes and just my life in general. If you have any other questions you'd like me to answer, please feel free to ask them in the comment box below!

Coffee Time

Todays Coffee: 
Instant, tons of milk, 2 sugars, and in my favourite mug - Just the way mumma likes it.

Oh hai.
So, whilst sat on my arse, staring at my computer screen, thinking of things I could write, I suddenly got a little burst of inspiration, for the first time in a long time, and have decided to write a little series on here called Coffee Time. Just a way for me so be consistant and check in with you guys every other day with what I'm up to, how I'm feeling and adventures I'm having. (So, y'know, mainly me sat in front of my computer). So lets see how this goes shall we? I've wanted to do a little blog series for a while but was stumped on content I could create until it was staring me right in the face. 

What today has consisted of: 
Staying in bed until 1PM, finally dragging myself out of bed only to laze about in my pyjamas, cleaning the house, prepping dinner for when my mum gets home from work (Roast pork and mash potatoes, yum), and watching creepy abandoned places videos on Youtube, I just find videos like that really interesting until I end up creeping myself out. Should probably stop watching them alone..

Things that have made me happy today: 
Being productive, cleaning, not fighting with my sister, we walked to morrisons, had an actual conversation and shared a chocolate trifile. Moments like that which I share with my sister I'll treasure forever because we don't always see eye to eye.

Things that have made me sad today: 
Spilling BBQ sauce down my freshly washed pyjamas, spilling chocolate trifle down my cleand dress. Can you see a theme here?

Currently listening to:

So I guess thats the jist of Coffee time, hope you enjoyed it and i'll see you next time! Rise early, and caffeinate often. 

Also a little sellout bit, because if you can't sellout on your own blog when can you? But you can now buy me a coffee, if you'd like, Yay! 

My Mistakes Do Not Define Me

I wont lie to you guys, I have said and done some things in the past that I now deeply regret. The past few hours, I've beaten myself up over it, going over the "what ifs" and the "how life would be nows". I'm the type of person who hates drama. I hate it, anything that involved confrontation is literally my worst nightmare, yet, in some situations, I find myself elbows deep in drama, still sinking and not meaning to in the first place. 

So here's the most important question of them all; "What am I going to do about it?" - Surely Laura, (an almost fully grown adult), is able to sort out even the most complex situation in her head to give herself some peace. And yeah, I did think about it for a bit, and then decided the best cause of action would be to write it in this here blog post, for this little corner of the internet to see. Because, and this will shock you, I'm only human, we all are, and we all make mistakes and do things we regret, myself included, but there is no point dwelling on what could have been, when all is said and done. 

And here's a shocker; I am far from perfect. And I don't think I've ever claimed to be either as a matter a fact, I don't think I would be a fully functioning human if I were to be. And yes, sometimes I let my emotions get the better of me, as much as I try and not let them; and I do things I regret, but there is no point dwelling on the past when you can be thinking on how to create and shape your future. 

I have never wanted so badly to leave the past in the past, yet, because of my own doings something and someone is always there to bring it back to present day. A constant reminder of a "What if" situation always manages to worm its way back into my life, and i'll be honest I am so looking foward to the new year, where I can put this what if behind me for good and start again. 

At the beginning of 2017, I made my new years resolutions, like we all do, and I haven't stuck to any of them. However, I did vow that I would finally take into my own hands, the severity of my mental health and how it's effected not only myself but also the people around me. Baby steps to begin with, but sometimes it's the small steps that make a huge difference.

Like I've said, I can't be 'perfect' all the time. Who would I be if I was? If you know someone who claims to be perfect all the time, never admits their mistakes, never lies - don't believe them. Everyone makes mistakes, some more than others, I know this, but if we never made any mistakes we would have nothing to learn from and shape ourselves into the people we will soon be. Regret things and vow never to do them again, make mistakes, cry until your cheeks are burning. Everyone has to crumble at least once so you can bounce back up as a stronger and better you. 

I'll be honest, some of the actions I've done this year I have no explanation for. If you think you know me, you most likely don't, I'm still trying to figure that out for myself. But my mistakes and actions do not define who I am as a person. I refuse to let anyone lead me to think that because of the actions I have taken in the past define who I am now. 

I am brave enough to sit here and admit my mistakes. Look back on the past and realise that yeah, that really probably was a stupid fucking idea to do this and that, but I did it anyway. But, I can look back now and realise why I messed up, and what I can do to (hopefully) not do that again in the future. But hey, here's to new beginnings. 

Despite all of my mistakes, I finally want to fully embrace who I am, because at the end of the day, I'm human, and proud of not claiming otherwise. 

Writers Block

Oh hai, 
I know what you're thinking; "So you've come crawling back to your little blog have you?". Truth is, I've been around, here and there, I've just not cooked up any good ideas, thoughts or adventures for that matter, that I could share with you guys. Honestly what I'm about to blabber on about is probably boring, but something is better than nothing. 

How are we all today? Last night I thought it would have been a good idea to go to bed early, since my sleeping patterns been all out of wack lately, I thought I'd turn all my electricals off, brush my teeth climb into bed and have a nice long sleep. Did that happen? No it didn't - Ended up waking up at 4am didn't I? Now, like any normal person, they would have maybe gotten a drink and gone back to bed. But me? No, I decided that this would be the perfect time to clean my kitchen. At 4am. Who does that really? In my experience with this type of thing, not alot of people I'm guessing, people tend to be asleep around that time.. At least, I hope they are, or they're at work or maybe having an intense gaming session, who am I to judge? I just cleaned the kitchen..

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Contradicting all of what I have just said, I know realise why my sleeping pattern is so shite. It is not currently 10:54PM, about an hour ago I woke up from a two hour nap, havent eaten yet so I bunged a load of chips in the oven, now I'm wide awake, waiting for them to cook, and just ran around the house again cleaning up after everyone (and by everyone, I mean the most laziest 18 year old you will ever meet). What an exhilirating life. 

Again, apologies for the lack of posts, I'd like to think I'll be posting a bit more from now on since I have a few things cooking around in my brain that I'd like to share with you guys, so watch this space!

I'm now gonna induldge myself in some chips, because if you can't stuff your face at 11PM when can you?


5am Thoughts #2

Oh hai,

I know what you're thinking, "Laura why are you up until stupid o'clock again?" And i'll be honest; video games. Sure that's not a legitimate excuse to stay up till this time but a mixture of games trying to distract myself from my anxiety and napping for about six hours, plus eating late at night doesn't help much at all. Urgh, why do I do this to myself? Right now though is usually the time I like to unwind and chill, kinda like the witching hour but at 4am instead of midnight.. But i'll be honest there's no better feeling after playing video games in the dark with your friends, taking your noise cancelling headset off and hearing rain pouring down outside. It's just one of those things that really relax me I guess. Video games and downpours. 

Image taken from here

Edit: I totally made a Steam group for my stream to further grow my community you should totally check it out here.

JunkBae gets PoTG

More Player of The Game shinanigens because I'm sad like that and thought I did pretty well that match..


Oh hai,

Today I did the most adult thing of my life. Finished and posted my DRO, finally its done, gone for however long it takes to be processed. I'll tell you know, and anyone who's put off something that stresses you out for so long will relate to this; the surge of relief I felt when I sealed the envelope was nothing like I've ever felt before. It's like I've done the first adult thing in my whole entire life that might actually benefit my future. It feels like I can finally start planning for things that I may actually be able to do next year, and the year after, etc. I've never been to any games conventions which is something I've wanted to do for years now, I'll (hopefully) have spare money in my bank so I wont have to worry about rent or my phone bill or if someone asks me to go out with them I wont have to worry about finding spare money for that. I just feel like I can actually start doing things I want to do regarding my future and where it's going; no one telling me what to do, or what to spend this on or I have to save x amount every month because I'm being told to. I can finally do what I want. Just the sooner this is processed the better, and I can't bloody wait.  

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5am Thoughts

Oh hai,

I know what you're thinking "Laura, why aren't you in bed" well believe it or not my lovelies, I've already been to sleep.. If 3 four hour naps count as sleep, so now I'm up at stupid o'clock wondering what to do with myself, do I go back to bed and stare at the ceiling, or continue writing or think about things that are beyond my controll right now, who knows? I'm actually typing this on my phone right now, yay for blogger mobile. I was actually thinking of making some goals for things I want to achieve whilst being 23 so here it goes:

Things I want to achieve whilst 23:

Drop to a size 18 (ha!)
✴ Go abroad
Have at least two driving lessons
✴ Sort my finances out

Doable? Maybe, here's hoping through my year of trying to be an actual 'adult' I can stick to at least one thing. I guess we'll find out in a blog post next year? 

Papa 76 Steals PoTG

Gonna start documenting some Play of the games I get on Overwatch because I decided my gaming side of my blog needs more TLC. Enjoy.

Mentally Unstable(ish)

oh hai,

So it's been a long time. huh? I'm sitting at my computer in complete darkness contemplating if I should even write on here, or if I should keep my blog in the dark; It's been so long since I've written something, I feel like anyone who ever read this would have forgotten about me. I feel like that alot lately, like what's the point of doing anything? I've been made reduntant twice this year, cheated on once, lied to more times than I can count on my fingers. I'm sick of the drama, I hate confrontation, I just want a simple life, y'know? I honestly don't know what goes through some peoples heads sometimes - I turn 23 in two weeks, you'd think I'd have some aspect of my life sorted by now, like a secured job, my own place, stability with my mental health. I look at other people my age and they seem so content with their lives and I'm here questioning mine. What can I do to make mine any better? Is there anything I can do? Will I ever get out of this rutt? I feel like I'm on a train thats just stopped and doesn't feel like it's going to start going ever, at least any time soon. I feel like my anxiety holds me back doing things I want to do, as well as my non-exsisting self confidence. i want to make friends but I can't, I want to be good at something I can work towards but what's the point if I don't already have the skills to do that thing? I want to make my life worth something, but what? 

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My head is contantly going through senarios that I could be doing but at the same time I'm telling myself I can't do them. What's the point of trying if I know I'm going to fail? I know people say trial and error is something when trying new things but I'm scared of failing truth be told. I've lost so many things already I don't want to loose anything else, at least if I don't have/try for anything, I have nothing to loose right? I know I shouldn't but I judge and compare myself to others who look like they have it so much better than I do and think why can't I be like them? What can I do to be like them? But then I think why? Why should I be like them? That's just me being fake. Why would anyone like a fake person? But sometimes I feel like I would like the fake me more, even if other people wouldn't. It's hard to explain. I've lost my train of thought.. 

Looking back when I was 18ish I had my life pretty much planned out - uni, get a stable job, save up to move out, settle down. I guess that's what everyone wants though at that age. Instead I drop out of uni due to depression, I was at my witts end, travelling 3 hours a day, waking up at 4am, for a one hour lesson was killing me enough as well as doing a course I hated, I was on the verge of killing myself at that point until one day I decided I couldn't do it anymore and dropped out. I don't regret dropping out, but if I ever got the chance to go back to uni again I would, just got to sort out the student finance I owe (which, might I add, is lovely to deal with when you're unemployed). As for the job thing, the less said about that the better. I had a job I really enjoyed, until I went on holiday, got extremely ill and was eventually laid off for "Not being a people person". And the move out thing speaks for itself I guess. No job + no money = not being able to move out. I can barely afford my rent now, as well for other bills, which puts more stress on myself which makes me feel even worse. I'm currently processing a DRO (Debt Relief Order) which, if you've gone through it personally, is anything but lovely. 

I don't really know where I'm going with this, I just feel like having my problems written down for the world to see makes me feel better, in a stupid, weird sense. I mean, I'm trying really hard to sort out my mental health, not taking medication, but through therapy so we'll see how well that goes before I feel like a mental person again (which was the exact reason I came off them in the first place, ahaha - not a good reason, but it's my reason). 

But yeah, here's hoping that this blog will be a little bit more busy in the future right?