Little Things That Make Me Smile

Oh hai, 
Just a quick little blog post today. I thought I'd tell you all the cute little things that make me smile. I know some of my reasons may sound a little soppy or wierd or questionalbe. But the things that make me smile makes me, me. So, here's a list of things that make me smile;

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  1. Days where it just pours with rain, any excuse to stay inside and hide under a blanket.
  2. Being organised.
  3. The perfect Coffee.
  4. Guilt free Fried Chicken.
  5. Wierd/cute mugs.
  6. Walking down the laundry detergent isle in the supermarket and it smelling amazing.
  7. Blogging.
  8. Streaming video games on Twitch with friends. 
  9. Clear night skies.
  10. Caramel hot chocolate with tons of whipped cream and caramel sauce on top.
  11. Being organised.
  12. Loosing hours to a really good book.
  13. Fitting in an extra hour.. or six of sleep in.
  14. Discovering new places. (When I actually go outside).
  15. Good hair days.
  16. Good eyebrow days.
  17. Good eyeliner days.
  18. Recieving mail that isn't a bill.
  19. Waking up and realising you have no responsibilities for that day.
  20. When someone cancels plans you had made that you really didn't want to do.

What brightens your day? Let me know in the comments, I'd love to know!

Ease Your Mind

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Recently I've been writing alot, not just in here, but in my journal. I find it theraputic to write on this her blog, but there's just something about writing with an actual pen onto paper I love doing. It sounds sad, but I've hardly written anything since leaving school back in 2011, work has either been typed up, texted or emailed to me, never hand written. 
It's kinda sad, but I love handwriting things, especially mail, it just gives it that little personal touch.

I like to carry my little journal round with me where ever I go, that way where ever I am at the time, I can write, draw, paint, jot down blog ideas, a little bit of everything really. That, and I'm terrible at remembering little things, so I find writing it down helps alot. Sure, I have my notes app on my phone, but it's really not the same when it comes to it. 

Another reason I like to carry this thing around with me is because I find it theraputic to write things down. As well as it helping me remember things, obviously, I like to paint and draw in it, just little things, it's wierd to explain, I see things in my head that I need to put down on paper. It sounds dumb, but if I don't do it, I end up feeling really bad on what I could have created, so I like to doodle as much as possible.

I'd definitly reccomend getting yourself a little journal if you haven't already, even if you're not forgetful like I am, it's still nice to look back on good days, and sometimes bad days, learn who you are as a person, look back on how creative you can be and even plan some adventures.

I got my little journal for around £8 from Paperchase, I couldn't find the exact one I have, but I found one similar which you can find here. 
What do you like to put in your journal?

"Life Can Be Like a Punch.."

... Right in the face, if you're lucky. Literally, my sister just punched me in the face over tweezers (long story), but I got this awesome bruise now so guess I can milk being injured or a bit, right?

So, after this mornings shinanigens, I decided it was a good time to get out of the house. Living with an eighteen year old can be hard, what was it i was saying in one of my previous blog posts? Treasuring the moments I have with my sister when we don't fight over stupid shit? Ha. It's so hard living with someone you don't get on with all the time, esecially when it's family, I don't know what goes through their heads, you think if they thought about their actions before realising the consequences, life would be more peaceful wouldn't it? If only it were that simple. I guess we're both as bad as each other.

A friend of mine came out for a walk with me in the end which made me feel a little better. Sat down, talked, then after everything and dreading going back home, eventually went back, and napped for most of the afternoon.

If I'm honest, I still have a headache now. Urgh.

"Get To Know Me" Tag

Oh hai, 

So, like any normal person, I was scrolling through the internet at 3am when It suddenly hit me - After two years of blogging, I don't think I've ever done the "Get to know me tag". No one's ever tagged me, well, as far as I know, but I thought I'd tag myself so you lot can 'Get to know me'.

  1. What is your middle name? Elizabeth
  2. What is your favourite colour? Purple
  3. How tall are you? I'm a short 5'9 (175 cm)
  4. Cats or Dogs? Cats
  5. How many countries have you visited? Not many, I've visited; Spain, Turkey, Bulgaria and Ibiza (The less said about Ibiza the better)
  6. Are you in/gone to college? I finished college in 2014 with the lowest grade possible.. But I still finished!
  7. What was your favourite/worst subject in High School? Worst subject: Maths. Always. To this day i hate it. Favourite would be between ICT and Science
  8. What is your favourite drink? Vanilla latte
  9. What is your favourite animal? LIZARDS
  10. What is your favourite perfume? My favourite right now is Daisy Dream by Marc Jacobs
  11. Tea or Coffee? Coffee, everytime
  12. What would you (or have you) name your children? I've thought about it, but I kinda wanna keep it a secret :)
  13. What is your favourite book? If you haven't read Eat, Prey, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert what are you waiting for?
  14. What is your favourite movie? Toss up between Ferris Buellers Day Off and Bicentennial Man
  15. Are you Single or Taken? Single
  16. Whats your idea of an ideal first date? Fried Chicken has to be included. I don't care if we even do anything after that
  17. How many Girlfriends/Boyfriends have you had? Five
  18. Do you speak any different languages and how well? Unfortunatly, no :(
  19. Do you have any siblings? Yes, I have 1 sister, 3 half sisters, 1 step sister and 1 step brother
  20. How would you describe your fashion sense? A mess
  21. What is your favourite restaurant? Tiger Bills before they closed it, Now i'd probably go with Absurd Bird
  22. What are some of your favorite tv shows? Rick & Morty / Archer / Bottom / Gavin & Stacey / Skins / 1000 Ways to Die / The IT Crowd and Jeremy Kyle for good measure
  23. PC or mac? PC everytime
  24. What phone do you have? (iOS v Android?) iPhone 6s in Rose gold
  25. Tell us one of your bad habits! Taking stupidly long naps during the day, just because I'm bored, and then not sleeping at night.. Whoops

So, as random as those questions were, I hope it somewhat gave you a little insite into my likes, dislikes and just my life in general. If you have any other questions you'd like me to answer, please feel free to ask them in the comment box below!

Coffee Time

Todays Coffee: 
Instant, tons of milk, 2 sugars, and in my favourite mug - Just the way mumma likes it.

Oh hai.
So, whilst sat on my arse, staring at my computer screen, thinking of things I could write, I suddenly got a little burst of inspiration, for the first time in a long time, and have decided to write a little series on here called Coffee Time. Just a way for me so be consistant and check in with you guys every other day with what I'm up to, how I'm feeling and adventures I'm having. (So, y'know, mainly me sat in front of my computer). So lets see how this goes shall we? I've wanted to do a little blog series for a while but was stumped on content I could create until it was staring me right in the face. 

What today has consisted of: 
Staying in bed until 1PM, finally dragging myself out of bed only to laze about in my pyjamas, cleaning the house, prepping dinner for when my mum gets home from work (Roast pork and mash potatoes, yum), and watching creepy abandoned places videos on Youtube, I just find videos like that really interesting until I end up creeping myself out. Should probably stop watching them alone..

Things that have made me happy today: 
Being productive, cleaning, not fighting with my sister, we walked to morrisons, had an actual conversation and shared a chocolate trifile. Moments like that which I share with my sister I'll treasure forever because we don't always see eye to eye.

Things that have made me sad today: 
Spilling BBQ sauce down my freshly washed pyjamas, spilling chocolate trifle down my cleand dress. Can you see a theme here?

Currently listening to:

So I guess thats the jist of Coffee time, hope you enjoyed it and i'll see you next time! Rise early, and caffeinate often. 

Also a little sellout bit, because if you can't sellout on your own blog when can you? But you can now buy me a coffee, if you'd like, Yay! 

My Mistakes Do Not Define Me

I wont lie to you guys, I have said and done some things in the past that I now deeply regret. The past few hours, I've beaten myself up over it, going over the "what ifs" and the "how life would be nows". I'm the type of person who hates drama. I hate it, anything that involved confrontation is literally my worst nightmare, yet, in some situations, I find myself elbows deep in drama, still sinking and not meaning to in the first place. 

So here's the most important question of them all; "What am I going to do about it?" - Surely Laura, (an almost fully grown adult), is able to sort out even the most complex situation in her head to give herself some peace. And yeah, I did think about it for a bit, and then decided the best cause of action would be to write it in this here blog post, for this little corner of the internet to see. Because, and this will shock you, I'm only human, we all are, and we all make mistakes and do things we regret, myself included, but there is no point dwelling on what could have been, when all is said and done. 

And here's a shocker; I am far from perfect. And I don't think I've ever claimed to be either as a matter a fact, I don't think I would be a fully functioning human if I were to be. And yes, sometimes I let my emotions get the better of me, as much as I try and not let them; and I do things I regret, but there is no point dwelling on the past when you can be thinking on how to create and shape your future. 

I have never wanted so badly to leave the past in the past, yet, because of my own doings something and someone is always there to bring it back to present day. A constant reminder of a "What if" situation always manages to worm its way back into my life, and i'll be honest I am so looking foward to the new year, where I can put this what if behind me for good and start again. 

At the beginning of 2017, I made my new years resolutions, like we all do, and I haven't stuck to any of them. However, I did vow that I would finally take into my own hands, the severity of my mental health and how it's effected not only myself but also the people around me. Baby steps to begin with, but sometimes it's the small steps that make a huge difference.

Like I've said, I can't be 'perfect' all the time. Who would I be if I was? If you know someone who claims to be perfect all the time, never admits their mistakes, never lies - don't believe them. Everyone makes mistakes, some more than others, I know this, but if we never made any mistakes we would have nothing to learn from and shape ourselves into the people we will soon be. Regret things and vow never to do them again, make mistakes, cry until your cheeks are burning. Everyone has to crumble at least once so you can bounce back up as a stronger and better you. 

I'll be honest, some of the actions I've done this year I have no explanation for. If you think you know me, you most likely don't, I'm still trying to figure that out for myself. But my mistakes and actions do not define who I am as a person. I refuse to let anyone lead me to think that because of the actions I have taken in the past define who I am now. 

I am brave enough to sit here and admit my mistakes. Look back on the past and realise that yeah, that really probably was a stupid fucking idea to do this and that, but I did it anyway. But, I can look back now and realise why I messed up, and what I can do to (hopefully) not do that again in the future. But hey, here's to new beginnings. 

Despite all of my mistakes, I finally want to fully embrace who I am, because at the end of the day, I'm human, and proud of not claiming otherwise. 

Writers Block

Oh hai, 
I know what you're thinking; "So you've come crawling back to your little blog have you?". Truth is, I've been around, here and there, I've just not cooked up any good ideas, thoughts or adventures for that matter, that I could share with you guys. Honestly what I'm about to blabber on about is probably boring, but something is better than nothing. 

How are we all today? Last night I thought it would have been a good idea to go to bed early, since my sleeping patterns been all out of wack lately, I thought I'd turn all my electricals off, brush my teeth climb into bed and have a nice long sleep. Did that happen? No it didn't - Ended up waking up at 4am didn't I? Now, like any normal person, they would have maybe gotten a drink and gone back to bed. But me? No, I decided that this would be the perfect time to clean my kitchen. At 4am. Who does that really? In my experience with this type of thing, not alot of people I'm guessing, people tend to be asleep around that time.. At least, I hope they are, or they're at work or maybe having an intense gaming session, who am I to judge? I just cleaned the kitchen..

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Contradicting all of what I have just said, I know realise why my sleeping pattern is so shite. It is not currently 10:54PM, about an hour ago I woke up from a two hour nap, havent eaten yet so I bunged a load of chips in the oven, now I'm wide awake, waiting for them to cook, and just ran around the house again cleaning up after everyone (and by everyone, I mean the most laziest 18 year old you will ever meet). What an exhilirating life. 

Again, apologies for the lack of posts, I'd like to think I'll be posting a bit more from now on since I have a few things cooking around in my brain that I'd like to share with you guys, so watch this space!

I'm now gonna induldge myself in some chips, because if you can't stuff your face at 11PM when can you?


5am Thoughts #2

Oh hai,

I know what you're thinking, "Laura why are you up until stupid o'clock again?" And i'll be honest; video games. Sure that's not a legitimate excuse to stay up till this time but a mixture of games trying to distract myself from my anxiety and napping for about six hours, plus eating late at night doesn't help much at all. Urgh, why do I do this to myself? Right now though is usually the time I like to unwind and chill, kinda like the witching hour but at 4am instead of midnight.. But i'll be honest there's no better feeling after playing video games in the dark with your friends, taking your noise cancelling headset off and hearing rain pouring down outside. It's just one of those things that really relax me I guess. Video games and downpours. 

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Edit: I totally made a Steam group for my stream to further grow my community you should totally check it out here.

JunkBae gets PoTG

More Player of The Game shinanigens because I'm sad like that and thought I did pretty well that match..


Oh hai,

Today I did the most adult thing of my life. Finished and posted my DRO, finally its done, gone for however long it takes to be processed. I'll tell you know, and anyone who's put off something that stresses you out for so long will relate to this; the surge of relief I felt when I sealed the envelope was nothing like I've ever felt before. It's like I've done the first adult thing in my whole entire life that might actually benefit my future. It feels like I can finally start planning for things that I may actually be able to do next year, and the year after, etc. I've never been to any games conventions which is something I've wanted to do for years now, I'll (hopefully) have spare money in my bank so I wont have to worry about rent or my phone bill or if someone asks me to go out with them I wont have to worry about finding spare money for that. I just feel like I can actually start doing things I want to do regarding my future and where it's going; no one telling me what to do, or what to spend this on or I have to save x amount every month because I'm being told to. I can finally do what I want. Just the sooner this is processed the better, and I can't bloody wait.  

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5am Thoughts

Oh hai,

I know what you're thinking "Laura, why aren't you in bed" well believe it or not my lovelies, I've already been to sleep.. If 3 four hour naps count as sleep, so now I'm up at stupid o'clock wondering what to do with myself, do I go back to bed and stare at the ceiling, or continue writing or think about things that are beyond my controll right now, who knows? I'm actually typing this on my phone right now, yay for blogger mobile. I was actually thinking of making some goals for things I want to achieve whilst being 23 so here it goes:

Things I want to achieve whilst 23:

Drop to a size 18 (ha!)
✴ Go abroad
Have at least two driving lessons
✴ Sort my finances out

Doable? Maybe, here's hoping through my year of trying to be an actual 'adult' I can stick to at least one thing. I guess we'll find out in a blog post next year? 

Papa 76 Steals PoTG

Gonna start documenting some Play of the games I get on Overwatch because I decided my gaming side of my blog needs more TLC. Enjoy.