Happy New Year!

Writing this a little drunk, a little sad and a little tired but Happy New Year Lovelies, may 2019 be full of happiness for you!
(And full of lots of fried chicken too)

Work Thoughts

 For those of you who don't know, I am currently an Business Administration Apprentice working at my local hospital and usually I spend a little bit of my time during work hours day dreaming.
 I thought it would be fun for you guys to read about the random things I think about, talk about, heck even see (within reason) I was trying to think of the best way to lay this out to make it easier to read for you guys, so I think I'll stick with time stamps and edit this post every time something relatively interesting happens.
So lets get on with the day shall we? Today it's Monday the 10th of December 2018, and I started my day at 6:00am. 

"I don't want to get out of bed, please let me sleep. Please, please, okay fine, i'll get up."

"Should I wear eyeliner today? I kind of want to but I cant be bothered." Proceeds to put on eyeliner anyway, and then I'm faced with a dilemma. "Great now I have to straighten my hair because I look like I've just been dragged under a bus." Proceeds to straighten hair but in a mood whilst doing so. 

"I should probably leave my bus is going to leave soon... Who invented buses anyways?"

"I'm so hungry, I should of had breakfast. I'm gonna get bacon. Bacon is always a good idea."


"I'm sad my bacon experience is over, I wish I could have more."

Me, thinking about a childhood show I used to watch: "Why do I remember watching this, but also not watching this."

"As if I just walked into two patients and a chair by accident. Why am I like this?" Thankfully they saw the funny side. I don't think i'll move from the office again today..

"Really? A headache right now? Can this day get any worse?"

"I just want to nap."

"Lunch time yesss." (I had a turkey, lettuce and mayo sandwich in case you were wondering..)

"Oh gosh walking. I hate walking. Do I have to do this? I guess the sooner the better right? Urghhhh."

I'm writing this part the next day. (Tuesday the 11th).
From about lunch time through to the next couple of hours were a bit of a blur. I didn't really think of anything, just about how much I wanted to go home and nap. I didn't mind you, myself, my mum and my sister went out and got our Christmas tree which was a chore in itself but that's a story for another day. I got my mums Christmas present, watched vlogs on YouTube. Bit of an anti-climactic day in all honesty. 

Although our Christmas tree isn't finished in terms of decorating, I'm starting to feel super festive now!

I'm sat at my desk in work now and I'm trying so hard not to fall asleep, I'm just exhausted all the time, and walking around a lot after lunch yesterday hasn't helped my leg much in terms of pain and swelling so that's always fun, right? (Nope!)

(And if anyone from my work ends up reading this, I was totally doing work, I swear, honestly, just taking a five minute break to rejuvenate the mind and such).

Okay but really, only five more hours until I can go home and take a nap..
How was your day?


If anyone knows me well they know I hate confrontation. 
I'm so bad at it, I try to put off confronting people unless I really have to and just leave something to bubble up inside until I can't take it anymore and BOOM. Burnout. Stress. Crying. Lots of crying. 
Recently I've been in alot of situations involving confrontation, silly things really, however, I like to think I can stand up for myself if I really have to. I just need to maybe stop swearing at people when trying to explain myself... Baby steps, right? 

Thinking About 2019

Oh hai,
I was sat here thinking about the past year and what I've done and accomplished and where I’ll be this time next year and it really does make you think about how quickly this year has gone and that Christmas is just around the corner and 2019 is less than four weeks away and honestly it's a bit daunting. 

Let’s start with the boring bits, shall we?

Looking back I've also been fed up. Really fed up. Fed up of people telling me that I'm a dick, that I'm no good, that because I don't want to do something that someone else wants to do makes me less of a person. Because it doesn't. You know the feeling where someone drills comments into your head over and over and you start to believe it? I was almost there, but I'm fed up of apologising for being me. If you don't like it, just bugger off. I'm trying to worry less about what others think of me because of certain ways I act or things I say, sure I don't think before I speak, sure I say some things I regret, heck, we all do, but honestly I'm fed up of treading on egg shells around people because I'm worried of upsetting them and what they could say. At the end of the day, I'm done with toxic people telling me I'm a dick, or "Oh but you used to do this", blah blah blah. Yes, used to. Past tense, I'm not the person I was five years ago, and you shouldn't be angry or upset because I don't want to do something I no longer enjoy doing, and yes, sometimes that includes socialising, going outside, even talking to people, I'm an introvert, what do you expect? I'm just done apologising for being myself. I think some changes in the people I keep in contact with will be made in 2019. As harsh as that sounds, I'm done putting the effort into friendships that give nothing back, and you can walk all over me, talk shit about me, whatever, just don't expect anything back from me anymore, because I'm done. 

Phew, that felt good to get off my chest honestly; shall we get onto the fun bits now?

I've grown a little bit, as a person. I say a little bit, because I feel like I'm halfway being the person I want to be. What does this mean exactly? I'm still figuring out that myself really, I feel like I need to grow more, and become myself. Like a caterpillar turning into a beautiful butterfly so to speak. I also want to grow not in myself but also my career. Working for the NHS has been amazing, and I'm so lucky to have been given the opportunity to work for them, but I'm so ready to be over with my apprenticeship. I've been doing the same thing, in and out now for nearly a year and I'm ready to do more, learn more and help more. I've been told once you've got your foot in the door within the NHS, it's easier to find a job in within another department but I guess only time will tell really. 

Getting a new job, as well as a raise will give me so many new chances to do new things. I'll be able to learn how to drive, go to more social events, go on holiday, see my boyfriend more, the list is endless. I'll be able to grow even more as a person, as mentally and physically (Oh gosh I'm so old)..

I'm excited for next year and the new things I'll learn, new people I'll meet, new opportunities to grab. What excites you for the new year ahead?

Thank you.

I feel like I haven't written on here in forever, I've sort of pushed all of my blogging thoughts and wonders to the back of my mind, that was until I got a little email today from the UK Blog Awards telling me that someone had nominated me for an award. I'm so honored! Thank you so much to whoever you are for nominating our little corner of the internet for an award, and while I'm not so sure we'd even win anything compared to all the other amazing bloggers out there, even being nominated is something i'll treasure for a long time. (I totally didn't sit in work for thirty minutes bawling my eyes out). 

I'll update you guys soon on what I've been up to and where I'm at but I just wanted to pop on here to say "hello, I'm still alive and lurking, just not really ready to fully come back yet, please don't hate me".

Until then 

Holding Off.. || BLOGTOBER

Hello internet.
I'll be honest, the past couple of weeks have been nothing but hell for me, I've been sick for a while and had no idea why until I was admitted to Hospital Saturday night where I found out I have inflamed Kidneys and Influenza. I know what you're thinking, "It's just the flu, get over it" but what you don't know is that I've had so many other symptoms with this it's getting to the point where I can barely get out of bed or eat. (Only really getting out of bed to use the bathroom, my current count for bathroom use last night was 42 times, I shit you not. No pun intended). 

But for now, I think I'm going to hold off on the Blogtober posts, only because I'm finding it hard right now to even sit at my PC and think of something to write up for you guys. 

So yeah, there's always next year right? 
I hope whatever I have clears up soon honestly..

Reasons I love Autumn || BLOGTOBER

Yay, guess who's finally up to date with all their Blogtober posts? You're right, it's me. 
So I thought todays post would be about all the reasons I love the Autumnal season, not just because the air is cooler and crisp, the nights draw in more quickly and you can snuggle up in mountains of blankets with hot chocolate, but because of how close the season is to Christmas, and I'm a sucker for festive activities, not forgetting, the best holiday, Halloween. 

October is the month that you can sort yourself out, I use Autumn to go threw my things and declutter my life, as well as preparing for Winter. October itself is such a relaxing month in my eyes, and even though it's going so fast already, I can tell it's going to be a good month. 
So with me keeping on, I guess I was gonna tell you the reasons why I love Autumn;

  • Leaves falling and crunching
  • Hot chocolate, stupid amounts of hot chocolate
  • Getting cosy in massive blankets
  • Oversized jumpers

  • Bonfire Night
  • Halloween
  • Scented candles
  • Spending stupid amounts of time snuggled up in bed with Halloween movies
And those are my main favourites of why I love Autumn, what do you love?

Sick of Being Sick || BLOGTOBER

So for the past week now I've had what only I can describe as the flu of doom. 
I have an ear infection and a sinus infection, so you can imagine I feel far from fabulous right now. 
Luckily, finding out that I had an ear infection that's connected to my ongoing nausea is such a relief because I thought it could have been something worse, but I guess that's just me overthinking? I'm just finding it difficult sleeping, eating, really doing anything with an 'ing' at the end right now. I have a weird pain, I'm not so sure on how to desribe it, going from the bottom of my nose, into my head and accross my cheeks, you think having a sinus infection is fun? Because it's not.. I guess I'm just rambling again, I'm just sick of being sick all the time, y'know? 

All About Me || BLOGTOBER

I thought this Blogtober post would be fun to get all close and personal and tell you some things about myself.. Not too close mind you, because some things are best left unsaid, or better yet, for another blog post all together.

The basics:

(The boring part) I'm 24 years old, I have dirty blonde hair and blue eyes.  
I sometimes stream over on my Twitch channel, I'm very bad at video games and not the most patient person, but i have a lot of fun doing it. 
I studied IT in college for four years before going off to Art school to study a foundation degree in Game Design and Animation, after staying there for a year, I dropped out because the course just wasn't for me. 
I'm currently working for my local Hospital doing an apprenticeship in Business Administration and I love it (I just wish the pay was better). 
I've suffered with Anxiety (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) and Depression since I was around 16, along with some other things I wont go into now.  
I have a boyfriend who lives in London, and he is very very lovely. 

Fried chicken. 
Mostly 80's music but I like some of the music that the 'cool kids' listen to sometimes, it depends what mood I'm in honestly. 
Laughing and making people laugh, even if that person is laughing at something dumb I've said, it still gives me that fuzzy 'I did that' feeling. 
I've recently started drinking Peppermint tea and I'm mad I didn't start drinking it sooner. 
Being organised. I hate being late for things, cinema, appointments, work, you name it. I always try and be at least ten minutes early to any of these things in fear of being late or missing out. 
Fried chicken. 

Mushrooms, mince meat and pasta.
People who go out of the way to hurt other people, what do you gain from this?
Bees and wasps. 
Spiders, not necessarily a dislike, more of a phobia to be honest. 
People who use other people for personal gain.

I'm a nightmare if I'm tired and/or hangry.
I love to nap. 
I let people walk all over me and I don't know why. 
I can go from not caring what people think about me to actually caring what they think, it's a work in progress thing and I'm getting there but it hurts what some people say sometimes. 
I know how to ride a motorbike. 
I find it frustrating that so many people are good at things and I'm not really good at anything. 

Well, I hope this gives you a little more of an insight on who I am as a person, I'm not perfect but then again who is? I'm really loving writing this Blogtober posts right now so who knows, maybe i'll keep up to date with them? No promises, obviously..

Ramblings || BLOGTOBER

I thought I'd take day two of Blogtober as just one ramble and go off on one really. 
I know I do that a lot but I haven't recently so I thought hey, we're due one of Laura's go off on one posts, so why not?
Recently I've not felt so good, more physically than mentally. I'm exhausted all the time, not tired, but exhausted, like, I could take a nap, then have another nap for taking that nap. My sleep schedule is still all over the place too, as well as having a constant headache, not bad enough to take painkillers, but noticeable enough to know it's there. I just feel like my body is giving up on me right now and I'm not sure what steps to take to put it back together again, that and not having enough time in between naps. I've been told to stop naps all together, and trust me, I've tried, but it's gotten to the point now where I slump in my computer chair, try and play a game and wake up a couple of hours later in the same position, and sometimes even in bed, but I don't even remember even waking up to get into bed? And no one in my household has the strength or motivation to pick me up from my computer chair and chuck me into bed I know that for a fact. 

Right now too, as I'm typing this in work (Naughty but I'm up to date with everything so doing this is better than sitting here doing nothing) I feel myself drifting off every so often which is ridiculous. I don't think I remember what it's like to actually feel 'awake' or 'alert' I'm just in a constant state of drowsiness and I just don't want to feel like this anymore. Like my body is just giving up on me. 

To add fuel to the fire, yesterday was just lovely. Did you see the sarcasm there? Probably not, but it started off well, and just got progressively worse to the point I broke down crying in front of my work friends which was embarrassing to say the least but you know when something effects you so much, and you can already feel the tears building up, and you're trying so hard to hold them in and that one person asks if you're okay and suddenly your face resembles Niagara falls, it happened.
I woke up on time, all fine and dandy, got ready for work fine, tripped onto the bus, tried to buy breakfast and my card was declined. Got to work, my computer finishes doing an update it was doing over night and then Blue screens me, so I restart, and it blue screens me again, and I did this about four or five times before I decided it was time to call IT to sort it for me. At this point I'm told they might be 24 hours before they can sort it so I have to use another computer in another office which triggered my anxiety big time, I know that's sad, but the thought of not being within the place I'm most comfortable with and know everyone is just daunting to me. 
Fast forward about an hour later, I get a call from the IT guy asking me questions in a very slow manner, you know the way people talk when they're trying to explain something to someone and they know nothing about that subject? Kind of like that so I'm there like come on, please just fix my computer, I tell him I've booted the PC into safe mode already and he needs to come now because I don't have a PC to work at. About ten minutes later, he shows up, takes the PC and leaves. From then on it just got worse, I was told they were not able to recover anything on the Hard drive because the update had corrupted it and it was basically dead, so I'm sat there like "This is fine, just a years worth of work and coursework gone forever this is fine" Luckily, I have physical copies saved, but nothing else could be saved. 

They replace the Hard drive, everything's fine, up and running, oh wait, I've lost all my passwords and usernames, this is great all fine and dandy. Spent an hour trying to remember everything, get all logged into everything all fine. Home time comes and it's time to shut down my computer. Windows update. "Please don't do this. I've just got you back I can't loose you again" I say to my computer. I leave. 
Come back in this morning, log in to my computer everything loads until, you guessed it, another blue screen.  
That's fine, let me go home so I can cry in bed now, or do I have to wait until later?
Of course it was later, it always is. I woke up today wanting to stay in bed and hide from the world but I'm here in work anyways so that's an achievement in itself I guess? 

I told you most of this would just be me going off on one but I feel a little better for it. 
i'm desperate for a nap, I might go and find a place to hide for a bit. 

Hello October || BLOGTOBER

How is it October already?
It seems just like yesterday it was the middle of June and I was organizing works Christmas party, now it's 85 days until Christmas, where did all that time go? You blink and suddenly you're 24, still struggling somewhat with finances because of your apprenticeship and spilling water down yourself at work because yes, I am bunking off right now, unless this counts as my lunch break?.. I'm counting it. 

Any who, I thought with the spirit of me writing down goals and never really reaching any of them lets just add some more to the list especially for Blogtober! Sound good?

  • Blogtober - Obviously the main goal is to have a total of 31 posts up during this month. A post a day, doesn't sound like much but if you're a professional napper/procrastinator/excuse maker like I am, something as easy as this can be a little difficult. 
  • Take more photos - And I don't mean selfies. I feel like since life is going by so quickly I want more to remember each memory and look back on them when I'm old and senile. 
  • Carve a pumpkin - As sad as this may seem, i don't ever recall actually carving my own pumpkin for Halloween so it's something I'd like to attempt to do this year. 
I'm going to keep this post short and sweet since we're already three days into Blogtober and I'm already three days late with posting this, but, better late than never right?


Well guess who's been neglecting their blog again.. That's right, it's me, I'm the worst..
Anywho, I have alot to update you guys on since I last wrote on here in August.
I decided to take it upon myself to 'sort myself out' and get some self help so I'm now regularly seeing a therapist and honestly it's done so much good for me. It's hard to accept that you have to see someone because of what's going on inside my head, but once I did it cleared the fog that was flying around on my brain. I feel so much better for it and I've started to keep a journal with all appointments, how I feel and random doodles.

I find that it helps if you have cute stationary to write in (or who knows, maybe that's just me) And my Kiki-k planner which I've linked is literally me in stationary form. If you're looking for something cheap and cheerful Paperchase is just as good but my planner was a little on the pricey side. Fortunately, I was lucky enough to get mine for my birthday from my boyfriend and he went and Monogrammed it with my name in rose gold and oh gosh I love it so much. Another thing that happened this month was my birthday, I turned 24 (Oh gosh I'm so old) but really I don't feel any older, and I don't think I look that much older. But I want to actually do something this year, I'm not sure what yet, but I look back on the previous 23 years I've been on the planet and I don't feel like I've accomplished much at all. People who know me will probably say otherwise, but that's just how I feel personally. I want to take more risks and push myself to create more content, whether it be on here, or on Twitch, or anywhere else really, I want to push myself to do more and grab more opportunities that I can use to my advantage and such. Wow, that was deep right? But I guess we can only see where the future takes me and what will happen. 
I also happened to take the week off as holiday from work just so I can recharge and fix my sleeping pattern (which totally didn't happen obviously) And I was actually looking foward to going back today and getting back into 'work mode' but my body had other ideas and gave me food poisoning, which, working in a hospital, isn't ideal. So instead of working, I'm sat feeling sorry for myself and writing out a little update for you guys instead.

How have you spent your Tuesday?


So as I sit here at my work desk I find little or no motivation to carry on with any of the coursework I'm supposed to be doing. I'll stare at the screen for a few hours hoping something will come to my head but then nothing comes into my mind for me to write. Honestly, I din't think a Business apprenticeship would be so hard, but when it asks me to explain things like 'Tax liabilities' and ask me to explain about every work act under the sun, my brain just goes into full on melt down mode.
Not even a usual melt down, like anxiety ridden, more like the nope I'm not doing this today melt down. 
So I try and sit here to gain motivation to at least write something in my own words that I found on Google but still nothing. It's like my brain doesn't want to work at all. And then I get the "You're so useless you can't do anything" thought in my head, which I know I can, I just have no motivation to. How do I get that motivation back?
Honestly I cannot wait for my upcoming annual leave, I know I've only been here a few months but my brain feels frazzled and I need time to re-charge. 
And a nap.. A nap sounds good right now. 

Why I love Blogging

Back in 2015 I decided to open up Just Laura, my blog. My motivation for it was to share stories of my doings, some sorts of reviews and general crap I deemed interesting to write about at the time. My first ever blog post which you can find here was literally me just ranting on about how I'd just opened the blog and what you can expect. I will admit there have been times where my blog has had little to no activity which looking back I really regret. I love writing, it's the only activity I do that keeps me a bit sane, when I can think of something to write about any way, and I see other bloggers with different backgrounds like beauty bloggers, mum bloggers, lifestyle bloggers and I questioned for a while what category I came under and whether I should keep blogging or not, and then I thought, why should I fall under any category? Why can't my blog be a Laura category or me category, I started out writing this blog with myself in mind, why not keep doing so?

And so I am going to keep doing so, and for the few people who do read my blog, and have done over these weird and wonderful three years, thank you. I appreciate you. 

I'm hoping in the upcoming months my blog will have a little more consistency to it in regards to posting but I'm not promising anything, just know that I have quite a few posts in my drafts right now and a few ideas I'd like to write about in the future so keep an eye out for that. In the mean time, just expect random rants and thoughts from myself.
What would you like me to write about? Let me know in the comments and I could make a post about it!

Toodlepip xx

Hello, August

Another month has passed, and here I am welcoming August with a big hello, or should I say, a resentful one. Don't get me wrong, I love summer as much as the next person, but when it comes with 30C heat on continuous days and working with little ventilation or AC you start to wonder when will it ever be cold again.  
Being more on the chubbier side has its perks, especially in Winter because I'm well insulated but in the summer I just resent this body because of how hot it is and that it sweats in places I never knew you could sweat. My whole diet right now is anything cold, albeit, Ice-cream is not the healthiest thing to live on.. Perhaps I should move onto ice cubes (I'm kidding do not even attempt to live of ice cubes). But really, how does anyone cope in this heat? Sure, it's nice when we're abroad, but us Brits aren't built for this kind of weather, we've built houses to keep heat in, with no air conditioning and everyone fighting over a little plugged in fan if you're lucky. 

So with it being a new month, and me not sticking to any of the goals that I originally had planned for myself this year, at all, I thought it might be a good idea to make mini goals each month that should be slightly easier to stick to, so that I can implement them into my everyday routine.

  • Walk more 
As boring as it sounds to me, walk more, even if it's just around my work. I need to get out and about and moving more rather than take naps every time I get home from work. I know this isn't at all good for me but my sleeping schedule is pretty much non-existent right now and I'm running on three to four hours sleep when it should be eight. It's just finding the motivation to actually go outside and get out and about rather than give into the nap urges..

  • Completely cut out fizzy drinks
They're not good for me, my body, my teeth. Whats the point? Sure they taste nice at the time but honestly I don't feel good after I've downed an entire bottle of coca cola. Switching fizzy drinks for water will be better for me in the long run, especially for my skin!

  • See a movie
I haven't been to the cinema in ages! It's good to get out sometimes and I think seeing a movie will do just the trick. Have you guys got any recommendations for me? 

  • Fix my non-existent sleep schedule
I really need to stop napping and start sleeping at normal times because going to bed around 1am and then waking up for 6am to start a nearly eight hour work day is really starting to take it's toll on my body. I want to start switching my computer off around 11:30pm just to begin with and then get straight into bed. (I should also probably stop endlessly scrolling through Instagram when I'm in bed too..)

  • Stream more
Ha, Laura, you're so funny. But really, I miss streaming and I should do it more often but I freeze when I click the go live button and my anxieties take over. "No one wants to watch you when there's someone better". I need to stop listening to that and remember the reason why I started streaming in the first place. To make friends. Don't get me wrong, I've met some amazing people through Twitch who I wouldn't be without now but I'd love to grow our little Lizard club some more since it's been a little quiet lately. I've decided to try and stream  one consecutive day a week, then up that when I feel more confident, and I know one stream day doesn't sound like much but to me it really is. It's something I'm working on so please bare with me whilst I do and thank you to those who are already doing so ❤️

So there it is. My thoughts and feelings and goals of this month, I guess we'll see how much I stick to and how much I don't (again). Wish me luck!

What I do to stay creative

When it comes to any type of creative thing, from writing, to drawing to painting to baking, everyone can reach a wall where they think "Now what?" Doing the same thing can become a little mundane after after a while. It's important to shake things up a bit with the entire creative process, which can be daunting but also really exciting. I thought I'd share some of the things I do to keep my creative juices flowing, I'm not saying you have to do them too, but maybe implement one or two into your creative routine to mix things up a bit and keep your creative brain flowing.

I find keeping a diary and writing in it first thing in the morning can jump start your creativity. Even if its just a sentence, or a reminder it's still something. 

Keep an idea journal with you at all time
Again this could be the diary you write in in the morning or a completely new book to carry with you all together (I found a really cute organised I want but can't justify spending £40 on it, ouch!) when inspiration strikes, record it into your journal whilst your idea is still fresh in your memory.

Use sticky notes
Record thoughts on sticky notes and rearrange these later into flow charts that fit your specific projects. I used to have little watermelon shaped stickies because I'm sad like that.

Make lists
My favorite thing to do is make lists. It's an easy and simple way to get lots of ideas out quickly and I find you write more than you expect once you've started. 

Break your routine
Do something out of the ordinary, go for a walk or for a coffee and a weird time and just people watch. Get your blood pumping, doing the same things over and over can eventual make your mind go dull, breaking that habit can make you do something exciting and new!

Tidy up your Office/Desk/Work space
There's nothing I find more distracting than an untidy desk, an untidy desk is an untidy mind. A clean space will clean your mind and conjure up your creativity. 

It's okay to experiment and try new and scary things. Trying something new with your project can be daunting at first but listen to what your gut tells you and go for something you haven't done before.

I find creating vision boards on sites like Pinterest can help you see and create new and inspiring things.

Like I said before, it can be daunting trying something new but sometimes the best things come out of being nervous about something. What are your ways of keeping creative? Tell me in the comments!

My Music Tastes

This is gonna be a short and sweet post today but better than no blog post at all, right?

There's a fair few of you out there who may know my 'marmite' music tastes, you'll either love them or hate them. Over the years I've come across various tracks and playlists and finally created my own which I can only describe it as an organised mess so I thought why not share that with you guys? 

Below is my current up to date playlist that I'm listening to 99% of the time. 
(The other 1% of the time I'm napping.)

Wishlist Wednesday | July 2018

Oh hai
I've recently seen a lot of these types of posts, where people make mini wishlist's of stuff they may or may not want to buy on pay day which I thought was a really good idea, a way to keep track of the stuff you might spend (and hopefully not waste) money on.  So, I thought I'd jump on the band wagon. 

  • Moon Phases Wall Art - (link)
Not necessarily an essential but I've had my eye on this piece of artwork for a while. I've never really owned wall art apart from a few posters here and there over the years, but something about this just makes me love it so much. Maybe a birthday present for the near future? *Hint hint nudge nudge*.

  •  Precisely, My brow Eyebrow Pencil - (link)
One of my go to beauty products is the Benefit Precisely, my brow Eyebrow pencil. Slightly on the pricier side than other make-up brands I've seen but this is my all time favorite brow product to use because it makes me look like I actually have brows rather than non at all. (I use shade 2 if anyone is interested.)  

  • BADgal BANG! Volumising Mascara - (link)
I've yet to try this mascara but I've heard really good reviews about it. I'm currently using the Barry M That's How I Roll Waterproof mascara but I feel like I'm getting little to no product on my lashes at all. I want BIG lashes not lashes that look unkempt. 

  • On Point Precision Eyeliner - (link)
Yet another one of my go to Barry  products, this is the only eyeliner I have used that doesn't seem to melt off of my face or leave an imprint on the top of my eyelids (unless it's really hot).

  • ASOS Curve Ditsy Lace Tea Dress - (link)
I've had my eye on this dress for a while, a little out of my comfort zone with the way the middle is a little see through but I think I could rock this dress, especially with how hot it is in the UK right now.

  • Hello Kitty x ASOS Curve Over sized Tee (link)
Okay but why wouldn't I want this? It's adorable, I plan to get it in a couple of sizes bigger than what I am to use it more as a lounging tee than a going out one. 

I think I did pretty well for my first wish list don't you? 
What have you guys got your eyes on?