What I do to stay creative

When it comes to any type of creative thing, from writing, to drawing to painting to baking, everyone can reach a wall where they think "Now what?" Doing the same thing can become a little mundane after after a while. It's important to shake things up a bit with the entire creative process, which can be daunting but also really exciting. I thought I'd share some of the things I do to keep my creative juices flowing, I'm not saying you have to do them too, but maybe implement one or two into your creative routine to mix things up a bit and keep your creative brain flowing.

I find keeping a diary and writing in it first thing in the morning can jump start your creativity. Even if its just a sentence, or a reminder it's still something. 

Keep an idea journal with you at all time
Again this could be the diary you write in in the morning or a completely new book to carry with you all together (I found a really cute organised I want but can't justify spending £40 on it, ouch!) when inspiration strikes, record it into your journal whilst your idea is still fresh in your memory.

Use sticky notes
Record thoughts on sticky notes and rearrange these later into flow charts that fit your specific projects. I used to have little watermelon shaped stickies because I'm sad like that.

Make lists
My favorite thing to do is make lists. It's an easy and simple way to get lots of ideas out quickly and I find you write more than you expect once you've started. 

Break your routine
Do something out of the ordinary, go for a walk or for a coffee and a weird time and just people watch. Get your blood pumping, doing the same things over and over can eventual make your mind go dull, breaking that habit can make you do something exciting and new!

Tidy up your Office/Desk/Work space
There's nothing I find more distracting than an untidy desk, an untidy desk is an untidy mind. A clean space will clean your mind and conjure up your creativity. 

It's okay to experiment and try new and scary things. Trying something new with your project can be daunting at first but listen to what your gut tells you and go for something you haven't done before.

I find creating vision boards on sites like Pinterest can help you see and create new and inspiring things.

Like I said before, it can be daunting trying something new but sometimes the best things come out of being nervous about something. What are your ways of keeping creative? Tell me in the comments!

My Music Tastes

This is gonna be a short and sweet post today but better than no blog post at all, right?

There's a fair few of you out there who may know my 'marmite' music tastes, you'll either love them or hate them. Over the years I've come across various tracks and playlists and finally created my own which I can only describe it as an organised mess so I thought why not share that with you guys? 

Below is my current up to date playlist that I'm listening to 99% of the time. 
(The other 1% of the time I'm napping.)

Wishlist Wednesday | July 2018

Oh hai
I've recently seen a lot of these types of posts, where people make mini wishlist's of stuff they may or may not want to buy on pay day which I thought was a really good idea, a way to keep track of the stuff you might spend (and hopefully not waste) money on.  So, I thought I'd jump on the band wagon. 

  • Moon Phases Wall Art - (link)
Not necessarily an essential but I've had my eye on this piece of artwork for a while. I've never really owned wall art apart from a few posters here and there over the years, but something about this just makes me love it so much. Maybe a birthday present for the near future? *Hint hint nudge nudge*.

  •  Precisely, My brow Eyebrow Pencil - (link)
One of my go to beauty products is the Benefit Precisely, my brow Eyebrow pencil. Slightly on the pricier side than other make-up brands I've seen but this is my all time favorite brow product to use because it makes me look like I actually have brows rather than non at all. (I use shade 2 if anyone is interested.)  

  • BADgal BANG! Volumising Mascara - (link)
I've yet to try this mascara but I've heard really good reviews about it. I'm currently using the Barry M That's How I Roll Waterproof mascara but I feel like I'm getting little to no product on my lashes at all. I want BIG lashes not lashes that look unkempt. 

  • On Point Precision Eyeliner - (link)
Yet another one of my go to Barry  products, this is the only eyeliner I have used that doesn't seem to melt off of my face or leave an imprint on the top of my eyelids (unless it's really hot).

  • ASOS Curve Ditsy Lace Tea Dress - (link)
I've had my eye on this dress for a while, a little out of my comfort zone with the way the middle is a little see through but I think I could rock this dress, especially with how hot it is in the UK right now.

  • Hello Kitty x ASOS Curve Over sized Tee (link)
Okay but why wouldn't I want this? It's adorable, I plan to get it in a couple of sizes bigger than what I am to use it more as a lounging tee than a going out one. 

I think I did pretty well for my first wish list don't you? 
What have you guys got your eyes on?

Brain Dump

Oh hai, 
I'm not really sure where i'll be going with this post so you'll have to bare with me - I've had a lot of things on my mind lately that I feel would be written down. I'm not even sure if i'll publish this but we'll see. 

For about a week now I've felt my anxiety creep up on me again and I'm not sure why, I have nothing to worry about, nothing to stress about, I feel like my brain is just out of wack right now. I've been forcing myself to go to work, all I want to do is stay in bed and cry. I'll sleep for hours on end then stay up till stupid o'clock in the morning. I'm not eating properly, trying to eat breakfast regularly has gone out the window then when I do eat it's in large quantities and late at night. Then I feel like crap for eating, so i'll eat more to feel better and so the vicious cycle continues. I don't know how to break it. I can't go out for walks or barely put any pressure on my leg because it will just swell up and i'll be in agony. I've thought about getting a swim membership but I can barely afford that on apprenticeship wages, I can just about afford rent and my phone bill. I feel like all my stresses and anxieties are towards money sometimes but I have nothing to worry about in that retrospect anymore so then I go on to think what else it could be. 

I have little to no self worth or confidence right now either. I used to get up in the morning and put make-up on to make myself socially acceptable, now I'm lucky if I even put on mascara. I know make-up isn't the be all and end all when it comes to stuff like this but even I thought that was out of character for me. I feel like I'm doing bad in my job and no one really wants me there because I basically do nothing. I'm barely trained to do anything and anything I do get to do I feel like I'm doing it wrong and then it's worrying over getting in trouble. I've had four sicknesses in two months too so that's another worry swirling around in my head like "oh gosh please don't fire me". 

I'm also getting to feeling guilty for every little thing I do. "Oh you wanna have friends over? Well that's not fair on the people you live with", or "Oh you wanna go away for a bit next month? But i'll be alone". Like, it's not fair, I want to have a life to but I feel like I can't because my brain stops me from doing the things I want to do. I want to go back to the gym but feel like I can't and that my leg will stop me, any progress I did have with the gym is just gone, so what's the point of going back, I might as well just stay the way I am forever. 

All in all, my self worth and self confidence is at an all time low. I feel my anxiety crawling back and I can't pinpoint why. All I want to do is nap and cry. 

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Bright side to all this, I'm not doing nothing about it. I have a therapy session amongst other things coming up so I shall let you all know how that goes next week.


Summer Rant

I know I shouldn't take the warm summer weather we have now for granted but wow I sure wish it would cool down a bit here. It's been over 23C for almost a month now and I've forgotten what the cold and rain feel like.
Yes, I know what you're thinking, "oh god she's one of those people who complains a lot." but aren't we all really? I know as soon as it starts getting cooler again i'll turn around and make some comment about it being too cold and that how I wish we had the warm sun again but Oh god I've been sweating in places I didn't know you could sweat. I get to the point where I think to myself "should I invest in a fan", think "nah it's going to be cooler tomorrow" but boy was I wrong. Being on holiday in this heat would at least be less torture since you have a pool you can jump into whenever you want but here you're lucky if you get a cold shower for over four minutes, even then, when you come out of that you're not sure if you're wet from the shower or wet from sweat - you can't win. 

What I'm trying to say is, excuse me sun but can you bugger off for a couple of days so we can all cool down a bit at least, that would be nice.

A sweaty lady

Comfort Food

As if I don't talk about food on here enough already why not take the best topic of all and rant on about that for a bit? What topic do you ask? Why, the joyful world of comfort food of course. Now I am a massive comfort eater, someone upsets me or I'm having a bad mental health day even a little bit and I'm straight to the shops for biscuits (That being said, biscuits is not one of them..) but we all have different food we grab form the shop or cupboard when we're having a bad day, so I thought I'd tell you a couple of mine, because honestly, If I told you all of them, we'd be here for a few weeks.

Not really a food, but I'm counting drinks too, any kind off coffee, latte, macchiato, flat white, are just a few of my favorites but i'll settle for store brought if needs be. Cappuccinos are a big no no. 

Fried Chicken
Because why wouldn't it be? Those of you who know me know that I love fried chicken. I would take a bullet for fried chicken and it's crispy golden deliciousness. 

Strawberry Cables
Because sugar. And strawberry. What more do you want?

Ben and Jerry's in particular, I would happily sit and eat an entire tub of the stuff, feel super bad otherwise then cry because I don't have anymore left. 

Chicken & mushroom slices
I have a thing for more savory foods right now, and although I couldn't sit and eat like more than three of these things in one go, I always seem to be grabbing one when I'm in a low mood. 

The worst one of them all. I've managed to cut all other fizzy drinks besides Coca-cola, I don't know why, I just can't quit it. 

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And those are just a few of my personal favorites. A little more insight into my hectic life if you will. What's your favorite comfort food? Lemme know in the comments!

5 Ideas For Humorous Birthday Gifts

So it's just gone 11am on a Friday morning and my brain is officially burnt out. All I can think about is how much I want to nap right now, and that seven hours from now i'll be collapsing into bed. However, recent conversations occurring in Discord have left me chucking in my office chair. Asking some of my friends what I should write about, my friend Dom (Who also has a blog and you should totally read it) suggested humorous birthday gifts, and whilst I thought this was a really good idea, the thought of writing about a chocolate penis at work and then having questions brought up about it put me off the idea a bit, so I thought I'd write this little section you're reading now, and write the fun stuff later, sound like a good idea? EDIT: I totally wrote this in work, please don't fire me. 

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Now, with some research and a lot* of effort, here are a five things I consider to be humorous birthday gifts, or gifts for any occasions, why wait for just birthdays? 

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1. Mushions

Now I know what you're thinking, what the heck is a Mushion? Well my friend, a Mushion is a cushion with someone's face on it. My face, your face, even your grandmas face, who wouldn't want of of these. These can be found on Firebox and can be yours for as little as £16 so why don't you treat your best friend to a Mushion of your face, then they can wake up and see how beautiful you are every morning. You can find them here.  

2. I'm a Tw@t mug

Let's face it, everyone likes a good mug, myself included so why not treat your friends, colleagues or even you mum to this funny little mug. (Okay maybe not your boss or your mum but you get the picture.) I found this one on Asos for £5! Steal! 

3. Tiny hands

That's right. Tiny hands. Who doesn't want tiny hands? I know I do, why be appropriate in any situation when you can make it inappropriate? And they can be yours from £5! I found them here

4. F*cking Strong Coffee

For all coffee lovers out there, why sleep when you can have F*cking Strong Coffee?
This powerful blend of Brazilian and Honduran Arabica Coffee is strong, flavorsome and full of dark treacle, cocoa and liquorice undertones. Yum. You can grab this from Firebox for £10 on its own, as a set or even as a Liqueur!

5. Eat a Dick

Literally. I thought I'd save the best for last. Tell someone to Eat a Dick in the nicest way possible, by presenting them with something like this. Why wouldn't you want to? It's tall, dark, and delicious, everything a woman (or man, or whatever you identity as) could want. And the best part? It's not hollow. So grab yours, literally, while you still can from Firebox

I just thought it be a good idea to mention that this is in no way a paid promotion just something I thought I'd do for fun, unless hey, Firebox, wanna send me some stuff to review? My inbox is waiting, heh. 

*Absolutely little to no effort was put into finding these gifts you'd be surprised with the amount of junk I find on the internet but it was still fun.

JunkBae Surprise PoTG

Thought I'd dump this here - Ya girls gettin' her mojo back!


Oh hai

Long time no see, again. Life has been very busy for me right now, busy as in working, taking naps and then playing video games with my boyfriend. But I was just talking with my work colleagues and we're all baffled about how it's already half way through July!? Where has the time gone? It's ridiculous how fast this year has gone already. I've been in my job for almost three months now doing a year long apprenticeship and it's scary to think I only have nine months of that left, which seems like a lot when its written down but when the days and months are going past as fast as they are I reckon it will fly by. 

Honestly, I'm trying to stop with the whole naps in the afternoon thing, but I'm so exhausted by the time I get home I instantly pass out in bed, I could be scrolling through my Twitter feed and fall asleep and then wake up hours later in the same position which in my opinion is weird.  It's not like I'm not getting enough sleep at night either, I'll usually nap around 4:30pm, wake up at either 6pm or 8pm then go back to bed at around midnight and wake up at 6am the next day for work. It's just so hard trying to find something to do to keep myself awake and busy as to not nap. I could stream, but my motivation for streaming right now is next to zero, I don't know why but I hope my spark for it comes back soon because I do miss it, but for now I'll enjoy being a lurker in peoples chats again. 

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As for the healthy thing I was blabbering on about in this post. It's obviously gone in a downward spiral because hey, it's me, why wouldn't it? I was tracking calories, making sure i wasn't having any fizzy drinks and trying to be as active as I could during the work day. Now I've stopped eating breakfast and just eat whatever when I'm home. I don't know why I'm like this, I want to better myself and not be at risk of diabetes or whatever but right now I'm just like "meh". I have the shittiest mindset right now when it comes to physical health, I feel like eventually if I don't sort myself out, surgery will be my only option.
My mental health has been better recently too, albeit, I'm on a lower mood today than i have been, but not nearly half as bad as I have been in the past, it's nice to wake up and not have intrusive or negative thoughts, and any I do have get written down and torn up later. 
I have a doctors appointment after work now too, for those of you who don't know, I had cellulitis around two years ago which has just ruined my entire lower left leg. I now suffer with Secondary Lymphoedema  which makes my entire lower left leg swell up, and yes, it is quite painful. Still though, others have it worse than me so I shouldn't complain but I still do have days where I think "why me". 

In the long run I hope that things will get better but I'm having a hard time right now to see any positives that could come out of my situation. I'll get there eventually, these things take time right?